Well, I am officially registered for Susun Weed's Green Goddess Apprenticeship Week (can be seen at http://www.susunweed.com/greengoddess.htm) in August. What a thrill it is to be able to work with such an inspiring woman. I had to write an application essay as part of the process and she called me yesterday to talk for a few minutes. I know that I will experience something very Spiritual and wonderful. Getting in touch and moving closer in my Path.
Working with the animals, tending the gardens, and meeting and greeting guests are part of the program as well as her classes on Herbalism, Yoga Classes, meditation, and so much more. When we spoke she mentioned that after reading my letter she feels that I need to work on my anger...Meaning that I need to learn to channel it and actually feel okay being angry. I am so used to being yelled at but when I get angry, it's hard sometimes and I feel guilty but other times when it's bottled up I tend to just snap which I hate. I find myself high strung at times bordering neurotic...not really but it feels that way.
Anger can be such an empowering emotion if handled appropiately and I want to learn to properly feel anger and not feel scared by it.
Being around other women is another thing I look forward to. Being able to connect with other like-minded women, unlike the friendships I have had in my past...Ones that were toxic and very unhealthy that I gained a big distrust for women and female friendships. That is something I would love to overcome and hopefully one day welcome female friendship into my life.
Well, I must try to get some work done plus I'm hungry...Brightest Blessings!! Jenn
Okay, it's 5 minutes to 3 and I have accomplished nothing today. I am trying to cut down on the caffine and it has truly messed with my natural rythm (sp?) I did not sleep an ounce last night and I am dragging although I took a very long nap. I think I'm just going to shower and try and get some work done on my website, GotIncense. I have stuff to put up there with Spring here and want to get moving.
Have to also work a bit more on my magazine. Already have 30 pages which is wonderful since I only started this last month so I'm getting there. Love this process and journey I have taken.
I'm truly beginning to feel such a closeness with my Spirituality. I feel it very deeply within. Reading LaSara Firefox's "Sexy Witch". Just started it today and I am looking forward to diving right in.
Well, I have to shower and wake a bit enough to work on my site. Brightest Blessings to all and I will get to saying "Hi" to all of you later this afternoon.
A few days ago I read on a friend's blog here that she is taking an Herbalism Class. That got me thinking about all things I always said I was going to do but have put off and working with flowers and herbs were one of those things. So, I went back and re-read her blog and looked up Susun Weed. I never heard of her so I was curious. What a pleasure it was to find so much wonderful information, and workshops, and classes, in person and online...The best part is that the Wise Woman Healing Center is located in Woodstock, NY...that's only an hour or so away from me. Must have been meant to be.
As I read further I saw that she offers Intensives and Apprenticeship programs. I was delighted. After much thinking, I have decided to register for the Green Goddess Apprentice Week on August 18th through the 24th. I have been looking for a long time something that would further my Spiritual Enlightenment, getting more in touch with myself and learning to become the strong woman I strive to be.
That week will do a multitude of things. For one, I will finally quit smoking, I will learn all about getting in touch and connected with my Green side. Learning about Herbs, making tinctures, oils, vinegars, teas and a whole lot more. Finally feeling connected to other women, something I have always had a hard time with...Getting rid of those lingering, negative messages that crop up and becoming more connected with my womanhood. At the end of the week, I will intiated as a Green Witch.
The center offers free Moon Lodges, more Workshops, Intensives and so many other beautiful things. The Green Goddess Apprenticeship can be seen here:
I am so very excited. What makes it better, but also harder is the price. It's a bit steep but she offers a work exchange which lowers the price extensively. I'll be working with the animals on the farm, tending the gardens and anything else that needs to be done.
What a wonderful opportunity this is! She is a fierce teacher/mentor but that is what I need to become all that I know and feel inside. I have felt stuck in a rut for quite a while now. Stagnant wondering where I am supposed to be and where I am supposed to go. Now I undertsand what my old therapist used to say to me..."You're right where you're supposed to at this very moment in time"...This is where I was/am supposed to be and this is a definite sign of where I am supposed to go and who knows what happens after that. All I know is that I will embrace the Green Goddess wholeheartedly and I can't wait.
I'm also excited because I received the book I ordered in the mail about Italian Witchcraft. The path I have delved into reading about and I am very excited. I am at a time in my life where I feel very creative, I just need to focus it where it will most blossom.
So, it's 8:52 as I sit here and smell the pot roast I put together last night in my crock pot and the house smells yummy!!...Hope it tastes as good. Never made a pot roast in a crock pot before. I love when I do things a head of time that frees me up the next day...Only wish I could that more often.
Had to get up early this morning to drive my fiance to work, and I just do not think I am getting out of my pj's just yet. So, I sit here with my first cup of coffee and have time to write. Both of the cats are sleeping. I love when they're sleeping...Means they're not getting into trouble *winks*
Yesterday, as I walked past my little indoor herb garden I noticed that there are tiny little sprouts popping up already. I was like a little girl. I was so happy to see those little seedlings. So excited..Just like a mother..:) I have pictures of making homemade sauce this summer, and summer salads, and dressings. Can't wait.
Spent the whole afternoon with my fiance's parents yesterday. Had a awesome time. After two marriages and no luck in the in-law department it's so refreshing to finally get along with the parents. I guess it's true. Third time's a charm.
As we were eating dinner we mentioned getting married. It's a long story. We have had to push back our date 3 times because my sister is getting married. Her first, and hopefully only wedding. Troy and I don't want the whole big shabang wedding..I've been there done that. He's never been married but just wants an intimate wedding.
His parents offered to pay for a Las Vegas Destination Wedding paid in full and we can have our honeymoon there. We'd be there for a week. We are so for going but since this is Troy's first marriage he has to make some decisions. I even mentioned a destination wedding in Sedona AZ. Have always wanted to go there and I found a place that has wedding packages, one including "The Shaman's Blessing". We would be married by a Native American and have an Authentic Native American Wedding. I just love the idea and would be able to have my siblings there with me. So, we have to make some fast decisions in the next day or so.
Well, I'm off to check on the roast and finish my coffee. Hope everyone has a wonderful day. Goddess Bless.
Tonight has been realtiviely quiet and I have been catching up on my friends online. With my website, my new magazine I am putting together along with everyday life, it's sometimes hard to sit down and write, even if it's just a quick "hello" or picture comment. I'm online often on and off but I am busy and so I feel a little guilty. Feels good to catch up.
Getting the house ready for Ostara. my first Sabbat I can actively participate after years of not being able to be truly open. Planted an Indoor Herb Garden, bought a new plant and also bought some silk flowers to bring some much needed color in the house. Also changed my kitchen a little to reflect the Italian in me. Beautiful colors have truly made a difference.
Tonight was very blustery and rainy. I was standing by my kitchen window and could hear the song of the wind, the rain hitting against my window and I felt close to the Goddess, so I lit a candle by the window and said a small prayer of graitude and love. The reflection of the candle through the window was magickal and before I knew it I made a mini altar that I am going to keep there.
Being able to fully engage in my Spirituality is amazing. I almost feel like this is all new to me. In a way it is. Although I have read and studied Wicca since age 13, I am now actually traveling the path..Walking the walk and tonight I felt very connected.
Looking into taking an Herbology class, I came across the Wise Women Center, I believe is the name and it is located in Woodstock, NY, only about an hour away but they also have an online course called the ABC's Herbalism and I am signing up for it. I'm very excited. I have always wanted to take an Herbology course and now I am and I couldn't be happier.
Well, it's getting late so I will go for now. Brightest Blessings...
